"I'm Not Alone"

For those worrying about the Fukushima Daiichi power plant growing worse.
March 18, 2011

After learning a bit about radiation and the possibility of it rising higher (although as yet it hasn't), I needed to process how I was feeling. Of course there was nothing "I" could do about what happens at the Fukushima Daiichi nuclear power plant, for better or for worse.

Yeah, I could choose whether to stay in Japan or leave (should the situation go much, much further to the absolute worst-case scenario). But I'm not leaving Japan. I'm called here. And I wouldn't leave Japan when she's most in need even if it was worse.

I couldn't figure how to picture what I felt about all this inside, just facing the mere possibility of things growing worse. They're not there yet at all, but even the mere possibility of them in the future makes you search your soul.

As I sat down, He helped me picture it... me standing in front of an oncoming storm, not able to do anything about it or take shelter, just facing it. And that's what my heart would want to do if such a storm were indeed coming -- I would want to stand and face it. But I was still not at rest even though I realized that would be what I wanted to do and what He called me to do.

But then *He* came into the picture! I thought this would just be me processing my feelings, having to decide if I would stay (*if* it ever got to that point in the future). But He didn't leave me with that: No matter what happens in the future, I'm not alone.